Hurtful words..

Still trying to stay afloat and be postive.

It's been really hard lately. 

Peoples words keep swirling in my head. 

Ya know those words some people say... 

That make scratch when they say it...

and as time goes on..

it grows in to a gaping sore 

No matter how much you think its not true.. 

It's still only in the back of your head..

You see, I'm a photographer. 

I have loved Photography since I was little

I remember my parents giving me their old canon. 

no auto focus.. 

no zoom..

I LOVED that thing...

I wanted to go to school for it..

but decided a more stable major would be best...

Now I have the support of my amazing husband I started 

Simple Love Photography

I'm not trying to get rich

I'm not saying I'm amazing. 

But I try my hardest..

I work my butt off...

I love what I do.... 

But there's this one comment from someone...

a friend

that I cant get out of my head.

She said that my pictures look

"Like anyone can do them" 

I don't know why it bothers me so much..

But I cant get it out of my head....

I keep going back and forth... 

am I really not good?

Do my pictures really look like anyone can do it

I'm all for constructive criticism but is that really constructive and am I being overly sensitive??

I hate that my posts lately have been so negative... 

I'm sorry... I kinda feel like this is my only outlet....

Inspiration

Do you have someone that you {secretly} admire?

I have quite a list of people I totally DON'T know
but I stalk through Facebook and Blogger.
I'm coming out and telling you all
about my stalker-ness of two amazing people

First and for most (and the reason behind this post)
my Photography Inspiration.
Let me tell you a little back story,
My amazing friend Kathryn, who is GORGEOUS,
does a little modeling on the side
and she met this Photographer Trevor Dayley
Then she showed me his Facebook Page......
AND I'M OBSESSED WITH HIS WORK!!!
Then Kathryn told me he's one of the nicest guys out there
and I admit, I'm ONE of probably A MILLION Stalkers!
And today HE TOOK MY PICTURE!
Yes I got to meet him and he took a few photos of me
(actually my hair, I was a hair model for a friends business)
Did I tell him I was his stalker ::No::
Did I want to ::YES::
Did I get creepy shy like I always do ::THAT'S A BIG FAT YES::
Why am I such a weirdo! LOL
Go take a look at his photos... BREATHTAKING!

Now my blog Inspiration is
Little Miss Momma
She is so awesome. Plain and simple
I love her style, I love her Etsy Store,
I love her mommy stories (because it reminds me of Baby Girl and myself)
I love how she tells the TRUTH about her life.
I commented on a post (from a previous blog)
and SHE COMMENTED BACK
I seriously was so touched that she took the time and commented on my Blog.
Have I been stalking her pages (Blog, FB, Etsy) ::Yes::
If I still lived in Simi Valley would I "accidently" run into her ::I would make sure of it!::
Have I sent her an email telling her I LOVE her blog ::sadly no I'm a scare-dy cat!:
Will I be buying the "NEST" Pillow ::You bet your sweet little tushy!::

Now, I bet your wondering if there's more. Oh yes, there is.
(But I'm to embarrassed to tell you my WHOLE list)
I think my name should be Stalker Sharleanna.
Well, I am now going to let BOTH of them know that I am a stalker
(I hope they don't put a restraining order or permanently block me)

Who inspires you???

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Tip of the Week #6 - The Little things

How many of you out there have a hard time

"getting pretty" every day
you know...
Hair
Makeup
cute outfit
legs shaved
Really WHO has time for that!?

Between work, editing photos, baby girl,
Working out so your Worst Nightmare doesnt happen (again)
who has time to get all dolled up??
Well, I didnt think something so small would make me feel so good
PAINT YOUR NAILS!
Something so simple but it will make you feel better
I did my nails and toes and felt super fancy!
not my hand but the same color I just did!

This little color adds a bit of happiness to my day

What Color will you paint your nails?

Exercise routine

So Mr.J and I have been talking
about #2! YAY
However, I dont want to get pregnant at this weight
(I have lost half of what I wanted read about that here)
Since hurting my neck, I gained a few (5lbs)
Grrr.....
Now I have 25 lbs that I want to lose til we get prego again
and we want to get pregnant in or around September.
so thats about 11 lbs a month
THATS REALLLLLY HARD!
Not only that but with it being 10,000000 degrees in Arizona
its really really hard to run :(
So gym/swimming and MAJOR dieting is whats going to have to do it.
Not only are we renting a room
Mr. J is still in training for his New PD job
(which is totally awesome!)
but his schedule isn't set, therefore I have no set schedule
it doesn't help with my OCD planning issues
So heres what I'm hoping my routine will be
Monday AM Run If I have time gym that afternoon
Tuesday TBC class at 4:30
Wednesday AM swim If I have time Gym that afternoon
Thursday AM Run
Friday Gym
Saturday 830 am Muscle class at the gym
Sunday Break

I'm also going to be eating around 1380 calories a day (according to myfitnesspal app)

This is the size I would like to get back to
::Sigh:: I will get there one day, I will... 25 down 25 to go... I can do this...
Who's with me!?!

Pantry

So we are in the process of moving

I have never moved 3 people before
(It was only me before and thats easy!)
the house is a chaotic mess
and IM GOING INSANE!!
I had to organize SOMETHING FAST
I decided the pantry would be the best place
Since I'm in there everyday
Heres the BEFORE
(Sorry the lighting is bad it was late at night when little miss M was sleeping and Hubby was at work)
UGHHH Sooooooo chaotic!
This is during...
(half of it is empty boxes since the hubby likes to put them back empty.. grr)
and with a little help of my Label maker!
(No I didnt add and extra "L" to Cereal thats the cursor!)
and an hour later!
This was just a simple/quick organization(therapy ) session
once we move into our new place I want to
redo most of the labels and bins
but it works for now!