Exercise routine

So Mr.J and I have been talking
about #2! YAY
However, I dont want to get pregnant at this weight
(I have lost half of what I wanted read about that here)
Since hurting my neck, I gained a few (5lbs)
Grrr.....
Now I have 25 lbs that I want to lose til we get prego again
and we want to get pregnant in or around September.
so thats about 11 lbs a month
THATS REALLLLLY HARD!
Not only that but with it being 10,000000 degrees in Arizona
its really really hard to run :(
So gym/swimming and MAJOR dieting is whats going to have to do it.
Not only are we renting a room
Mr. J is still in training for his New PD job
(which is totally awesome!)
but his schedule isn't set, therefore I have no set schedule
it doesn't help with my OCD planning issues
So heres what I'm hoping my routine will be
Monday AM Run If I have time gym that afternoon
Tuesday TBC class at 4:30
Wednesday AM swim If I have time Gym that afternoon
Thursday AM Run
Friday Gym
Saturday 830 am Muscle class at the gym
Sunday Break

I'm also going to be eating around 1380 calories a day (according to myfitnesspal app)

This is the size I would like to get back to
::Sigh:: I will get there one day, I will... 25 down 25 to go... I can do this...
Who's with me!?!

My worst nightmare

So this is a post that I DIDNT want to write, Why? Because
I'm humiliated
I'm mortified
I'm ashamed
I'm scared
of what...
my weight...
Before I got pregnant I had gained a few (and by a few I mean WAY TO MUCH) Since high school (almost 50 lbs) I was working out and being active but being comfortable in a relationship, (okay and maybe drinking and partying a little too much and being on the pill) Well, I'm sure you know how easy it is to
Lose control of your weight. I had lost control of my weight and BAD
THEN
I got Pregnant. I dont know my exact weight but Im guessing I broke 200 right around the time we conceived
(I want to cry just thinking about that)
(That's my awesome parents and I was wearing high heels in not that tall!Im only 5'6)
but do you see how big I was !!???!!!! UGH By the time I went in to the hospital I was 242lbs DO YOU REALIZE HOW BIG THAT IS!!??!
UUUUUUGH.... Then I had Baby girl... and granted I lost a lot of it... But I was still at 215lbs and a size 18, being over 200lbs was killing me. I was the athlete the one in shape that had a great athletic body and I felt like a flabby mess. I went to the Drs and was prescribed Phentermine. I lost 15lbs (so 200lbs) but it stopped working and then I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism which meant losing weight was difficult (felt like it was impossible)
But I didn't want to give up, I knew I could be happy with my body, I KNEW I needed to work out... BUT HOW?
Then I found my life saver
Running....
Now I know so many of you are going to say "I cant run" "I hate running" and that was SOOOOOO me but I found Couch to 5K
It has CHANGED my life...
I finished my first 4.2 Mile Race on April 16,2011 with My Dad Brother and Husband (and a friend)
I was hard, I cried many times. But I stuck with it... I lost 20 lbs in 9 weeks and I am in a size 13 again! Now I weigh less than I did when I got Pregnant!! I still have 20 lbs I want to lose (30 actually but Im setting my goal at 20 for now)
(Im in the Yellow shirt and that's my gorgeous and motivational friend Kathryn!)
So there I did it.. I shared my worst nightmare... I'm scared to death of what people will say I'm scared of Anonymous comments because I have read some really mean ones... but I want to be honest, I want to maybe help someone. And truthfully I wouldn't mind someone saying "Hey Im in the same boat! Lets be friends and we can help each other!!"

How did you lost weight or overcome your worst nightmare?